Life partner

I realized that nowadays more and more people are not really into tying two independent people through a ceremony called "marriage". More and more people realized that what tie people is actually love and needs and a marriage institution is merely a form of formality to allow society to push people to be always together... with or without love.

I always have an ideal imagination of how my husband would be. Or should I say my life partner would be. I think one of my imagination is that I feel safe around that person, that the person will protect me even from myself. Another imagination is that I feel that I can grow with his support and that I trust his opinion to be better than mine.

I think I found the one that fits this imagination but unfortunately I felt uncomfortable socially to be with someone that is the have the same gender with me. Hence, I know that every time I am in trouble she is always there for me. She knows exactly how to comfort me and she solved my problem with all of her efforts until now. She is the one that I can turn to when everyone else turn their back on me. She loves me to the limit that I never even know exists, until now and I believe until then.

I wonder if I should pave my life with her and if I should how do I do that. It is almost impossible.

I think deep in my heart, I always love her.

Always and forever