Fear

As time for my defense is approaching, everyday I tried harder to calm myself and focus on my work. The fear that I have is because I want to experience a decent closure to what I have been studying in the past four years. I am not afraid of the result, I am just afraid that I disappoint myself again.

I understand, fear is something necessary so that we have to be prepared, but it is also something discouraging. At this moment, I worry a lot about my life and I doubt every decision that I take. Even though it is something that makes me happy.

I then look back to what I have been through, decision that I took and how I overcame the difficulties. There are some similarities throughout my life, that I have to work hard to get what I want. If I work hard enough, I usually get what I want.

These days I will do my best to get what I want.